MY BRIEF TESTIMONY

BRIEF 5 min. PERSONAL TESTIMONY - BARRY BALLARD

On a warm summer day in Washington D.C., I sat in a small movie theater listening to a re-broadcast of a Billy graham crusade that had been previously given elsewhere. I was attending with a Christian group who ministered on the air force based where I was stationed, "Andrews Air Force Base". At the conclusion of the presentation, there was an invitation given to receive Christ and counselors were standing up front to pray with those who came forward. The house lights went up and I went forward and prayed to receive Jesus Christ into my life. This was not the moment of my true conversion, this was "preparation-of-heart", part one.

On a humid pitch-black night in 1969, my plane touched down on the Saigon airfield that was currently under rocket attack. Black-out conditions were in effect and we were rushed to trucks and then transported to our barracks and its inclusive bunker for protection. I was assigned an m16 rifle, two clips of ammo, and given a helmet and flack-vest. I spent my first night in Saigon standing in the bunker, wondering "why?" I was even here. I understood none of it, except that supposedly it had to do with communism and we were protecting democracy. But, I just felt abandoned to the most bizarre and remote assignment I could imagine. I worked "support", so I do not want to give the false impression that I was "combat"; but I did serve some time in the jungle. Only one man died in our group during the year I was there; and he told me beforehand that he wanted to die and never return home. He had received his divorce papers in the mail about a week before my arrival. He was shot down in a helicopter "one" day before he was to return home. My one year in Saigon was a lesson in the deterioration of the human spirit and soul. Eventually, I also learned to hate myself and "living" and could care less about what might lie ahead. I was returning to the states with a crushed human soul, devoid of all optimism. This was "preparation-of-heart", part two.

On a humid gray-dusk-like-evening, I found myself, in 1970, driving through the main gate of Carswell Air Force Base in Fort Worth, Texas. I soon settled into my tasks of working in the 7th bomb wing headquarters, in support roles again as usual. I also served on the honor guard for special occasions for fallen veterans funerals, or award ceremonies. Even though my personal psyche was "wasted“; I was considered an admirable employee and respected for my abilities. My inner life however was an absolute disaster that I did not "share" with anyone. Strangely enough; I was visited by representatives of the "Navigators"; the same Christian organization that had approached me in Washington D.C. I began attending bible studies two nights a week and felt a little better about life by receiving this follow-up. I'll call this "preparation-of-heart", part three.

During my term of service at Carswell, I met my wife to be, Beverly, who invited me to her church in River Oaks, "Trinity Baptist Church". They had a young pastor, John Hatch, who was just finishing his doctorate at Southwestern and the atmosphere attracted me. It was in 1973, “4” years after that initial "preparation-of-heart"; that I made an honest commitment to Jesus Christ and immediately followed that with baptism.

From there, the road did not get any smoother, but my “soul” began a healing process that eventually went from healing to true "Wonder and Discovery". The first thing that was revealed to me was my spiritual gift, which is "Teaching". While at Trinity, I ended up writing three commentaries: James, Colossians, and Philippians. All three helped me grow in my commitment to Jesus Christ.

True conversion was preceded by three moments of "preparation-of-the-heart" in my case. Over a four year stretch of time, God never gave up on me. I think the strength of my testimony must be given to the strength of God's loving patience; to lead me along the final path that would secure my faith. Thank You.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

BURNT-OUT CRATER OF ROMANS 2: 1-16

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GREEK GLOSSARY FOR THIS SECTION:

from now on, if a section will include a look at fuzzy-concepts that are clarified by examining the Greek; a glossary will be provided in the listing that will provide information in the following order: Greek word - given English - post-modern re-interpretation.

We begin with this section first because of the extreme importance of 2: 15 :

GREEK GLOSSARY:
IN: Greek word - given English - Post-Modern re-interpretation.

1.  KRINO - judgest - dogmatic preferences, presented to segregate people.

2.  ALETHEA - truth - truth, greater than appearance, or dogma; incomprehensible in nature.

3.  KATAKRINEIS - judgment - self-destruction.

4.  SUM - MARTUROUSASE - bearing witness - being-with witnesses in com-position place.

5.  PARADOXO-DIALOGISMOIS - dialogue of paradox - (this is exclusively  a concept belonging to Barth)

6.  SUNEIDZASEOS - conscience - consciousness (Barth adds “flowing” to consciousness to illustrate the flow of ideas from the burnt-out crater.

7.  KATEGORIA & APOLOGIA - accusing and excusing - presentation of “category of implicating the self” & “apologetic defense of one’s ideas”.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

THIS MARKS:

THE END OF "CHAPTER ONE" AND THE BEGINNING OF "CHAPTER TWO"

CONCEPT OF SIN FOR 2013: Rom 1: 18-32

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PREFATORY NOTE ABOUT TEXT:
verse 21:
“Vile imaginations” as “eskalos dialogismois” has possible translations:
a.  “useless reasoning” from (Nyland)
b.  “vain reasonings” from (Young)
c.  “Self-willed reasonings” from (Expositor’s)
d.  I take “dialogue” over “reasonings” and from a post-modern perspective, I take “out-of-place” over “self-willed”; which speaks to the same thing.
Verse 23:
the “Ioniou” of spiritual signs in contrast to “finite-icons” also can be taken slightly different; but generally the same:
a.  “image of imperishable splendor” for (nyland)
b.  “image of incorruptible glory” for (young)
c.  “Expositor’s does not even address it because of its obvious emphasis on spiritual verses finite.
d.  “kerygma” does not appear in the text and is used descriptively, from a phonological point of view.  With the emphasis on “speech” thus far by Paul, it seemed logical to borrow Bultmann’s descriptive concept.